I’ve been absent from the blog for a while for two good reasons and one bad reason. The bad reason came first–
Some writers don’t even believe this exists, but I’m going to disagree there. Some time in mid-July I just…stopped being able to write. Every sentence was uninspired junk. I didn’t know where I was going anymore. I was at the climax for the third draft of TSS and just noooooope. Not happening. So I did the hardest (and also smartest) possible thing. I closed the document and didn’t open it for a while.
A long while.
Like 5 weeks. (Published authors always say you need distance from your work. True story.)
And every day of those first 2-3 weeks, I felt terrible about myself. I felt like the laziest writer who ever lived, and therefore the least worthy of having a book published. I read a lot, figuring that would at least be accomplishing something, but that made me feel like I was just lounging. So some time passed, and I was starting to feel worse because of it. Weren’t ideas supposed to come to my subconscious while I wasn’t writing? Wasn’t I supposed to be having brilliant brain waves by now? God, I couldn’t even laze right.
But then…one day…a spark…
Out of nowhere, while I was reading something unrelated, I realized something that needed to change in TSS. I wrote it down. I had a few more ideas. I was starting to maybe, possibly, feel ready to write. Which brings me to reason #2 I haven’t blogged–I went home for a wedding and to visit family in New England (see covered bridge, above). But I think this is a very good reason not to be on the internet much, so no shame there.
And on to reason #3–my first full day back from traveling, I compiled my ideas for TSS, and I started to revise. Again (again). I didn’t have time to write blog posts, because I was actually writing my friggin’ book again. I’m now into what I’m calling draft 4, although drafts 2 & 3 never got endings, so I’m not sure how that works. Whatever. This draft shall be draft 4 because I deem it so.
Tomorrow marks a pretty significant (not necessarily in a good way) anniversary for TSS. I have always used September 1, 2014 as my start date when figuring out how long I’ve been working on this puppy. Which makes tomorrow one year since I started writing.
That’s a long time. A long long time. I thought I’d be querying in June. (Hahahahaha.) Then I thought I’d be querying in September. (Hahahaha. Ha.) Now I have a distant dream of January, but perhaps I’ll be laughing about that come the new year. I guess it doesn’t really matter anymore. I’ve come too far with this book to give up. One way or another, I will have a complete draft that I’m happy(ish) with. I’m too crazed to give up before then.
Push through the writer’s block, fellow writers. I’m right there with you.