I’ve been trying to decide for a while if I should publicize how many followers I have. I’m not really sure why it’s an option, because why does it matter if people know how many you have? If I have a lot, will that make people feel like it’s cool to follow me and I’ll get more followers? Or maybe if I don’t have too many, people will pity me and follow my blog. I don’t get what it’s supposed to accomplish exactly.
There’s this way that being a new blogger is kind of embarrassing. It’s a struggle to get people to read your blog, especially really early on when your archives consist of like a dozen posts. I’m beyond that point now, but I still feel like it’s tough. And I have a nasty habit of comparing myself to other people. So I’ll look at how many followers someone has, and I’ll feel like a failure if they’ve had a blog for less time than I have (about 6 months) and have more followers. Of course, if they have fewer followers in the same time, I pat myself on the back. Which is kind of dumb because I shouldn’t compare myself to other people, and I don’t want to put other bloggers down.
This is really all just a way for me to launch a complaint about the new Reader on WordPress and the Topics page that it replaced. To put it simply, the new Reader sucks. I won’t tell you all the reasons I hate it (you can find plenty of message boards about that). But here’s the primary reason I hate it: as a fairly new blogger, a lot of my blog traffic came from people finding me on the topics page. I know this because 1) I got the most hits in the hour after I posted and 2) only like 5 people find my blog with a Google search in any given week and 3) now that the Reader has replaced the Topics page, very few new people are commenting on or “liking” my posts or following my blog. Boo, WordPress. You make me sad and hopeless.
Full disclosure: I have 51 followers. And that includes my mom.
And you, my dear followers, make me feel very hopeful even when WordPress beats me down. You see, because there aren’t a whole lot of you, I am able to check each of your blogs once in a while, even the people I don’t also follow. And every time one of you clicked the ol’ follow button, I got reallyreallyreally excited. All of you are equally important, but since I can’t list all 51 of you, I’ll single out Old Jules, my first follower, and ashsilverlock, my 50th follower. Thanks for caring what I have to say! It helps me to keep writing.